For now...
-- Reina

For now, you may have to take your lunch everyday – peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, bologna sandwiches, or leftovers from your mama’s Sunday dinner.

For now, you may need to forgo expanded cable. No digitally-enhanced movie channels that feature the latest big budget blockbusters.

For now, that new pair of Jimmy Choo shoes and meal at the city’s newest and most hyped 5-star restaurant may have to take a backseat to bills, childcare, insurance, and other living expenses demanding their portion.

For now, you have to work from sun-up until sun-down to make one end even see the other end. For now, there’s more month than money, and robbing Peter to pay Paul means you also have to borrow from Mary and Martha just to keep Paul from realizing he was robbed.

For now, you may need to be alone – just you – to sort through your life’s purpose and figure out what’s really on your mind. For now, your alone time may best be spent dissecting and picking away at the scars and wounds just below the surface.

For now it’s hot outside, and when it rains, it gets hotter and the air gets thicker. For now, the heat and hazy air make you listless, have a headache, and draw cicadas – the blind ones that sting whatever they run into. For now, you’re counting the days until the first chill even though counting means you’re rushing your life.

But just as the seasons change, so do our own seasons and situation. You won’t always have to eat last night’s dinner; you’ll be able to go to the new restaurant and have lunch AND dinner if you like. Later on down the road, you will be able to buy 2 or 3 pairs of shoes using your very own disposable money, then choose which pair you’d like to wear on that evening’s date, shelving the other few pairs for the other dates you have lined up.

One day, and it won’t be too long from now, you'll see that “for now” will be yesterday.

Sadiqqa © 2007