Your
journey has less to do with you than it has to do with everyone who will be
blessed enough to cross your path… your gifts were never for you or about you.
-- Lisa Nichols
A few days ago,
I happened upon a website (Numerologist.com)
that gave me a free numerology reading. Well, okay, I didn’t happen upon it. I’ve always been
interested in the science and significance of numerology, or the patterns and
meanings of numbers and their relationship to occurrences and events. Numerology
is considered part of the occult, which makes most people nervous because they think
it’s about supernatural, dark, and mysterious stuff. Let’s be clear, though. The
anointing of Jesus is supernatural and
the power of God is incredibly supernatural.
Everything under and above the sun, including numbers, exists to inform us
about all we should know about the dark
and mysterious way of ourselves and
others, and certainly about the Super Nature of God. Numerology may have some illusory
factors to it, but I’m inclined to be open-minded, and I like the idea that
nothing in God’s universe is illogical or happens by accident.
After the website asked for my birth date then
full birth name, I got readings that described my life path, expression, and soul
urgings. It got a little spooky mysterious because it was as though the computerized
man who read my Self to me actually knew me! It was that accurate! I even
started over and entered my mama’s and daddy’s information; it was still spot
on! Of course, there was much more they were willing to reveal to me if I paid
them a little change, which I didn’t do… for now. I’m really interested in
learning about my Karmic Lessons, Pinnacles, and some number that helps to
reveal my Superpower!
But, most of
what my numbers revealed about me, I’d already heard, seen, or felt, so there
really weren’t any huge surprises. They merely confirmed that I’m not wrong
about myself or arrogant (well, not unnecessarily so) about how I walk this
earth. I know I’m a confident and independent leader. I’m good at getting the
ball rolling on new projects, but the details and routines bore me. My sense of
self is strong; I’m a truth seeker; and have the internal flair for being a
visionary. I have a “contagious enthusiasm,” but I’m sensitive and tend to
doubt myself/worry about how others perceive me. I am a hopeless romantic and I’m
not afraid to express my true feelings, although I feel rejected if my suitor
doesn’t respond accordingly. My mind is always working, I stay in my head. I’m
a giver and often give more than I receive, especially to people who don’t
deserve or appreciate me. But, even in challenges, I’m resilient and outfitted
to handle the many risks life poses. So the report summed me up pretty well!
But, while I
know who I am, what I had not fully considered was how who I am naturally
influences the lives of those I meet and love AND that I have a perpetual responsibility to them to be the best
me I can be. In other words, I’m not in this for me. The gifts God has given me
aren’t for me, but for others so that they can reach their greatest potential
and be empowered to share their gifts and talents with others.
Matthew 5:14-16a
says, “You are the light of the world. A
city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do people light a lamp and put it
under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the
same way, let your light shine before others so that they can see your good
works…”
Because of the Calling
on my life, it is imperative that I am a truth seeker who fearlessly digs deeply
into the secrets of the human mind and heart. I don’t do this just for myself –
although I am the first recipient of many great epiphanies; I do this for women
who also seek to know and love themselves as intensely and absolutely as I do
myself. I don’t see the big picture so that I alone can revel about its
victories; I see it for women who can’t see past the day or the hour because of
the outwardly insurmountable confusion and chaos in their lives. I tend to be a
bit aggressive, but I count it as passionate and uncompromising, especially as
it helps me advocate for the least of these – us women who are continually marginalized
and left to fend for ourselves and our children. I go hard because it’s
necessary for me to help create a safe space for us to unearth our power and potency
so that all who cross our paths may be whole, healed, and emboldened.
Because God, the
angels, and the ancestors saw fit to allow me to be GG’s mama and the caretaker
of over 300 other little hearts each day, I have an obligation to remain
optimistic, outgoing, and fun so that the world’s hopelessness won’t suck them
into it. My ability to teach in a
positive and uplifting way helps all of my children to understand and manage
themselves appropriately. And even when kids will be kids and challenge my
desire to help them reach their promise, I am able to bounce back stronger,
with more resolve and compassion to dream with them and imagine a future fit
for the children of God.
God told me that
if I believe in Him, serve His people, and keep His commandments, I can have
the desires of my heart (Psalms 37:4).
I believe Him! I also believe the numbers when they say that the Honey my heart
desires will be a nurturing, mellow, sensitive, ready to put me first, teddy
bear of a man who will adore my strength and sensuality, and provide the
fireworks my soul and substance crave! So I won’t mourn the countless
heartbreaks or the endless frustration; I will be grateful for the lessons and
use them to move forward into a love that is inspiring and worthy of me. In
love – and loved, I know myself to be exactly who God says I’m supposed to be –
encouraging, supportive, adoring, composed,
bold, brilliant, charming, and, most of all, everything my Honey needs to move
forward into his destiny and be his absolute best! For him, I am Everything so
that he can be Everything!
There are no
coincidences, everything on and of the universe conspires for our greatness.
The stars, the moon, numbers, letters, the wind, the trees and grass, the sunshine
and rain – all created by God’s hands – work magnificently to support and show us
the way for others to drink and feed from. Everything exists to affirm who we
are so that we can bless others, who will, in turn, manifest their fullest so
they, too, can bless others; and we can without conceit say the world does not
revolve around us. It, in fact, revolves because of us!